Another 6 days, then i will be totally freed!! Woohoo!!
I am experiencing cognitive dissonance now. My cognitions are inconsistent with one another.
I need money so i want to work! But i haven work a lonnnnng time and so i am abit scared. Also, since i haven work for a long time, i am feeling lazy. Yet again, i miss working!
So now you understand my cognitions are not in harmony now.
Fyi, codnitions include behaviour, belief and attitude.
I am so afraid that i cant make it for the 14th outing and 25th appt. What if my work doesnt allow me to leave?? Work ties people down, when you are working, you missed out a lot of things - -opportunity cost!!
Hellp!! i am head over heels in debt!. I still owe Jeric a debt of $700, i am already worrying about the $4000 school fees needed for the next school year, expenditures in the coming month before getting pay, treatment costs and sue is planning to go korea... =( Shit me!
AND why are there always new clothes coming? I cant stop myself from buying those clothes!! I think i contracted the shopaholic disease. Must be it!
I feel relieved that everything seems to be working out fine again between me and her. The random messaging and such. Phew! All those worrying over nothing. haha
I kind of find myself pathetic...i seem to be living for others. not for myself.
Deutsch and Gerald were right saying that people conform because they want to be accepted and liked. 这不是在说我吗？
我好怕失去自我！现在我所说的，所做的，不正是让别人不讨厌我吗？
说难听一点就是在讨好他人吧？
我该怎么办好呢？
其实我只是单纯地希望别人不要不喜欢我。
我...是不是太天真了?
Tuesday, May 27, 2008 -
hearts
