Me & my Darkest SecretI seem to have the knack for doing this. And i am getting the hang of it. I am always finding a chance to do it. When i succeed, i will feel a sense of satisfaction & 快感 (maybe?) I will be extremely pleased with myself when i did it. This is not something to be proud of coz if i am caught, it means ruining my own name with my own pair of hands. But i am hooked! Sounds scary, huh? As scary as it might sound, i can't stop the behaviour now. And it's becoming more & more frequent of late. I analysed that this could be due to the emptiness felt in me, i am trying to make up for how i am being treated there. I feel i deserve this. "Knock, knock!"i never have to worry about looking for jobs. Coz always they are the ones who come knocking at my door! Oops! sounds arrogant! hehe. =p Thats good, isnt it? Then i dont have to worry about being unemployed. Take this time for example. This side, I was worrying about where to get the money for my school fees when i quit reds. That side, headquarters salon is desperately in need of recep! So, if i can quit successfully, i guess i might be going there. O dear and they are Jeric's 死对头！Is this counted as betrayal/ job hop (cos it's still the same industry)? Anyway who cares! Actually i could've leave reds now. But since sophia will be on leave till 22nd, i will help them till then. Annie said i am quiting le still so kind hearted! haha i just dont want to be irresponsible! i will leave 风风光光， 至少以后见面还是"朋友". haha.Hypocrites!Reds are full of hypocrites! Yesterday he was still showing me attitudes and black face. Today he can joke around with me and sayang my head. Yuck! Is he trying to 补救 the already spoilt image that i have of him now?! Well, too late! And he's so sarcastic! After the off day episode on monday & my off day yesterday, this morning he asked "秀芬， 怎样，开心吗?" If i am not wrong, his words can be interpreted as: let you off yesterday le, happy ma?HUMph!
Friday, July 04, 2008 -
hearts
