Friday, February 6, 2009 Y
I don't understand them at all! (Them here refering to guys.)
Because I am feeling charitable at that moment (I must have been out of mind) and because i feel bad so i said ok. But is this what i am supposed to get in return?
You can see I had dug my own grave and now here i am, blood boiling and complaining and wondering how the heck i got myself entangled into this in the first place. Why do i have to make my own life so miserable when i should be pampering myself, emotionally that is.
i betrayed myself. Argh!
The question: The problem lies in me, that i am being unreasonable, or is it them, being the problematic ones?
Anyone in the right mind would not watch a movie at 940pm! (Right ping? Angie? SOmeone agree with me please)
Can somebody explain to me why do they like to hang out late at night ar? These 2 persons keep asking me out that i am DESPERATELY in need of excuses and lies. I felt guilty so i decided ok why not just go along and see what they have up their sleeves. (I am describing as if they are some villains, haha)
I said ok because i do not know we will be watchin it so late. Now i can't back out. I hate myself for that. I am angry. 但是我不知道我是在生自己的气还是他的气。
It's too late to say i can't make it. BEcause he has pre-empt me by texting me saying i cannot put aeroplanes. It's important.
As if i care. *Rolled my eyes*
I had a strong urge to reply: Whats so important about it. It's just a movie ok. No big deal.
Of cos i din. I am sympathetic.
With determination, I am definitely going to find out the reason why they like to hang out at night. Because of the fact that the person who is going to suffer ultimately is me.
So i asked Ricky. And his answer couldn't have been lamer.
" hot in the day"
" school and study in the day"
" can send them home"
What the... SOme people just need some slap in the face.
Jeremy said there's transport (tonight, the movie).
For god's sake, don't you get it that it's not transport I am worried about?! I just hate to be not at home when it's so late already!!
(Side note: Is it just me or it happens to others as well that as we grow older we don't like to be anywhere else outside our home after a certain time of the day? Well, at least for me, i would prefer to be home before 10/11pm. This, I am definitely going to make it clear to my future bf, that is if there's any.)
So, tonight, i will be sitting in some goddamned cinema watchin some goddamned movie with some XX guy, when i should be at the comfort of bed reading Keeping Faith or surfing the net.
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Friday, February 06, 2009 -
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