Wednesday, March 11, 2009 Y
I have no inspiration to blog at all!
It was supposed to be a much-awaited gathering for the lassies.
It was all planned! Look at what happened now..
Gosh I can even smell the 火药味 just chatting with twisties on msn!
I totally understand twisties feeling. I am sure everybody does too!
That's why i always shun to be the organiser.
It's the feeling of rejection that is hindering me from doing a lot of things, even opening my mouth to ask.
I don't like being rejected, as a matter of fact, i hate it.
I realised that you don't really reap what you sow; you don't really get back what you put in.
I am such a failure as a friend!
Twisties is feeling angry but i don't know what to say.
I really need some brushing up for my consolation & comforting skill. It sucks.
I am always at a loss of word when people are sad or angry.
Lately, i am short fused. I don't know why.
Just a minute thing is sufficient to trigger my temper.
I don't like this me, but i can't help it...
I haven been feeling happy. I forgot when was the last time i really laugh heartily.
Is it the fengshui or is it the I weekly tarot card reading that is affecting me?
Beware! Negative Aura beneath.
Anger-triggering issue No. 1
I am very VERY mad with my sister.
The audacity of her to steal my BRAND NEW pair of jeans and to even deny it.
My 一贯作风 is: the minute i planned what i am going to wear on that particular day, I WILL & MUST wear it, nothing is going to change my mind, no matter what, be it rain or shine.
And if i don't, i will feel BIG TIME cranky the entire day.
I told myself i am going to wear that pair of jeans and I am going to leave my house at 8am.
I end up searching high and low for it and at exactly 830am, i called my sis.
"DID YOU STEAL MY JEANS?"
"what jeans? you got see me wear jeans meh?"
At that moment, i am 101% sure she is the culprit. But i don't what i was thinking, i said bye and slammed the phone.
(the politeness of me to even say bye!)
Then i text her: you better not let me find out.
And i text bud: ...I am going to investigate.
真是祸不单行.
Prelim starts at 10am. But i was stucked at nowhere at 930am becos i took the wrong bus.
Can anyone be suay-er than me??
When i came home that evening, the first thing i did was to search my wardrobe again to make sure my eyes din play on me.
And guess what?
My jeans was hanging there as if it had never been moved, the hanger that i pretty sure i've checked it umpteen times and I would be blind if i missed it.
I took my jeans, go to my sis, threw it in her face, screaming and hurling words i forgot what.
Then i demanded $33.
Called buddy and chatted sarcastically about it.
I haven simmer down. Yet.
Anger-triggering issue No. 2
This really pissed me off.
Can anyone tell me if their mum buys fruits home, cut into wedges and then place each of them in plastic bags just like those selling outside???!!!!!
Then what? Eat and throw.
I am very irritated about this because hello??? Everybody is trying to save the earth and what the hell are you doing here??!
Alright, I am not being an extreme tree-hugger here, but everyone does a small part in helping to be green ma.
People saving money, saving electricity, and reducing.
But she's doing the exact oppposite. She ought to be ashamed of what she's doing and I'm utterly disgraced to have such family - a thief & a waster at home.
The problem is, she doesnt listen to me at all!!!
She even said: 外面还不是这样卖
I said: 你不要跟外面比可以吗。 你又不是在卖水果。
I hate my mum for not listening and always thinks she's in the right.
And i don't care whether I am being rude or not. As long as I know I'm reasonable and correct, i will just shout back.
Anger-triggering issue No. 3
This doesn't really make me angry, more of making me feel useless.
Yst the group of us went to union.
I really envy those dancing on the floor! They can dance so smoothly and femininely and showcase such confidence which i don't think will ever happen on me.
I am so clumsy and useless.
People who started learning salsa at the same time as me or even those just started can dance better than myself.
OKay, if i continue this part, i will definitely slip into depression again.
Anger-triggering issue No. 4
This is an accumulation of other small little things which irritates me, making me lose my cool.
Ping, so who is the one who is easily irritated?
haha.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009 -
hearts
